Wow it's been awhile, it's not like any one reads it.  But my life lately hmmmmm, i dunno.  classes suck what else is new right? boys definitely suck, that isn't new either. 

The only good thing about March that it's my birthday MARCH 31, but who knows what it's going to be like.  i'm not much in a party mood or a celebration. 

that's what's been going on....if u want to know more about it....let me know

Update of my life.....

Classes started so far so good.  Tomorrow is going to be a rough day but I will get through it.

Anyways....so many thing are on my mind and I can't really get things straight in my head.  I think that I have to take time to myself, to find out who i am and what I want.  I think I know what I want but truthfully I'm scared to death to grow up and go out in the real world.  I need to take time, that's what I need and that's what I want. 

One thing I really want is to go to California.  It was so fun other break going there but I really didn't get to spend time there.  It's so beautiful.  I really want to go see my friend Billy.  He has always been there for me and always knows the right things to say.  He doesn't tell me what to do or what he thinks i should do, he just listens, doesn't judge and gives his opinion/advice on the situation but doesn't expect me to take it, he knows that I will make the right decision for me.  I really miss him more than I ever had before but at least I know that there is always someone out there that cares for me and will be there for me.

Okay enough of my rambling.  Just needed to try to make sense of the things floating around in my head. 

Currently Playing California By Phantom Planet see related

Taken from Kara's Website...

This is courtesy of Vicki (thanks!), when I saw this I laughed cuz this is so true! Yes, I am a big nerd and I don't care.

You know you're a Huskie Marching Band nerd when...

15. While at a party and a song plays that you played for marching band, you have to fight to urge to play along and/or do visuals.

14. ...College football becomes a hot topic of conversations while previously being totally unknown

13. Your computer background is taken from one of the band picture websites

12. "Touch My Squirrel" plays in your head whenever you see one of those creatures

11. You find the uniforms sexy

10. You actually know all the words to the alma mater

9. There is no walking to class, just roll stepping

8. Your computer is full of songs you downloaded because of a show you played

7. Doing the thriller dance isn't a choice; it's an instinct

6. When someone starts clapping, you automatically begin...one, two, one, two, three, four...Huskies, come on you Huskies...

5. You own more marching band clothing than regular NIU clothing

4. You play your part along with the bells at noon and get annoyed when there are wrong notes

3. You keep coming back to NIU year after year just for marching band

2. The only time you dress up all year is band formal

1. Your first day of band camp is spent looking for prospective people to have BTRs with

Gotta love Marching band.....

Haven't written in awhile....my life sucks!  Only a week til i go back to school, kinda excited about that because I get to see all my friends which i missed so much.  A lot of crap, shitty crap has been going on with me, I have no idea what to do....oh well, life goes on!

peace